6 o’clock in the morning, my phone ringed and one message was received. I ignored it and continue my sleeping until 9 o’clock, because I thought that was a promotional message sent by Maxis or Hotlink.

Surprisingly, that message was sent by my (ex)girlfriend. She apologized to me, and she said that she wanted to break up with me. I was really confused by that message, how come suddenly she said like that?

I felt terrible after reading the whole message, so I called her after finished reading the message. Yet, she rejected my call, and sent me a message saying that she is having an exam. I quickly went to bath and drive to her house, because I hope that she left her mobile phone at home, and it’s her elder sisters who sent out those messages to me, I hope they praying prank with me that time. But once I reached her home, I realized I was wrong, her mum told me that she did not left her mobile phone at home.

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So after asleep for a while, I felt much more better. My thinking are now changing back, from negative to positive thinking.

Somehow, yesterday is the day I started to became the previous me. I will talk lesser, and lesser. I don’t really care what’s the others think about me anymore, I will be myself again. You might think that I am running away from the reality or the problems that I had to face it, whatever it is, I will remain silence again.

Days by days, I saw more and more peoples are lying, and they keeping on lying. So how do I believe the others? We all are living in a world that full of lies, and the awful truth are always hidden. I saw again, the ugly side of the human being. So being a human are sucks? Or the human being are sucks naturally?

I should keep my promise on my previous blog posting, I should spend less time on instant messenger, and I did that today. I am thinking of leaving this kind of “world” right now, and find another “world” that’s belong to me, or at least, accept what I am.

Now I am career minded person, since the god are slowly taking away my belongings, but I think the god did so because the god is hinting me that, I will have a better one very soon. The world is not going to end when I lost everything, in fact, something new is coming into my life. In life, we have to give and take, let it go away today and hoping for a better one tomorrow.

Sometimes I started to doubt, whether is my existance are still important in this world? I’ve been thinking of that, and what I found out is, actually even I am gone, nobody would realises it anyway.