So after asleep for a while, I felt much more better. My thinking are now changing back, from negative to positive thinking.

Somehow, yesterday is the day I started to became the previous me. I will talk lesser, and lesser. I don’t really care what’s the others think about me anymore, I will be myself again. You might think that I am running away from the reality or the problems that I had to face it, whatever it is, I will remain silence again.

Days by days, I saw more and more peoples are lying, and they keeping on lying. So how do I believe the others? We all are living in a world that full of lies, and the awful truth are always hidden. I saw again, the ugly side of the human being. So being a human are sucks? Or the human being are sucks naturally?

I should keep my promise on my previous blog posting, I should spend less time on instant messenger, and I did that today. I am thinking of leaving this kind of “world” right now, and find another “world” that’s belong to me, or at least, accept what I am.

Now I am career minded person, since the god are slowly taking away my belongings, but I think the god did so because the god is hinting me that, I will have a better one very soon. The world is not going to end when I lost everything, in fact, something new is coming into my life. In life, we have to give and take, let it go away today and hoping for a better one tomorrow.

Sometimes I started to doubt, whether is my existance are still important in this world? I’ve been thinking of that, and what I found out is, actually even I am gone, nobody would realises it anyway.

I started to doubt, is the god still dote on me? If yes, why give me such jokes?

16 July 2008 – Pendrive corrupted, all assignments redo
18 July 2008 – Daylight robbery, losing a few thousands and a mobile phone
22 July 2008 – Pendrive went missing in the college lab, someone stole it, all assignments redo again!

The same day I have to pass up my assignment, the same day my pendrive was stolen. I curse the person who take my pendrive, will fall down in front of me. The god is taking everything from me, step by step. Why don’t you just take away my life? It is easier, because right now, my life is suffering. My current situation is worst than the dead one. It’s not I don’t want to think positive, but how?