Image 1: The gray box representing the fucking lorry. And I am the red box.

Image 2: Because it was raining heavily, I have no where to go but only hoping the lorry would stop.

Image 3: The fucking lorry did not stop at all. Fuck!

Image 4: I just feel bad after the crash, because the car is not mine. I just don’t know how should I explain to my elder brother. I was panic and thinking a solution. What a mother fucker, I need the lorry driver pay for the car’s damage!

On 15th December 2007, around 11.30AM. I fallen asleep again at the sofa because I am too tired. And I had the worst “nightmare” of my life.

Usually I drive at 80km/h only, I am not speeding but just the pick-up a little bit faster only (and the muffler sound is noisy a little bit only).

After the accident, I was with my laptop and mobile phone. I quickly took my mobile phone and called my girlfriend. She answered the call, and what I heard is she just crying non-stoply. I was wondering what on earth happened and what is she crying for. I keep talking to her on the phone call, but seems like she cannot hear what I am talking at all.

I quickly turned on my laptop, and what I saw is the pictures of my body. I was dead? Oh my god! The pictures clearly showed on how I was dead. And I was dead immediately after the car crash. My face was horrible, I cried when I saw these pictures.

I kept telling myself, repeatedly with a face full of tears:
“NO WAY! THIS IS FAKE! I MUST BE DREAMING!”.

I wanted to die for a long time already, I just want to leave this god damn world. But now I just hope I wouldn’t die at such a young age. Because I haven’t prepare for death yet! I haven’t finish my college study, I haven’t earn enough money, I haven’t fulfill my duty as a son of my parent, or fulfill my duty as a youngest brother of the family. Don’t come and take my life!

But then, please don’t be surprised if my website / blog would continue after I passed away. This is because perhaps I would do an automatic scripts for my websites / blog. It will automatically make new post (pre-saved), even I was not in this world anymore. Sadly, I won’t be replying any e-mail / comment / IM if this really happened.

Few days ago, my friends asked me whether can I hack his computer by just chatting with him over the MSN. And of course I said no because I am not a expert on hacking personal computer.

What is more enjoying is hacking website or attacking server. But then, I had stopped hacking due to some reasons. I would like to think out a idea on how to hack, without being caught. Is this possible?

What I had hacked so far:
CCTV (full administrator access and view-only access) – Damn nice and enjoyable when full administrator access available.
Website (those with super poor security) – Just for fun only, even dummy can hack it.

I also attacked several websites, just want to make it down. But too bad, the damn security of the server, only caused 5 minutes down time. Damn it!

And yes, I am looking forward to hack something nice out there. Perhaps if another hacker who wish to share some ideas with me, can post comment here, and please remember to leave your e-mail address.

For your information, I am still doing research on the “Port Scanning” thing. I hope that I can launch a “massive attack” of SQL injection or DDOS attack soon. Don’t blame me for that, we are just telling the world out there on how poor the security can be.

Everything that is connected to the Internet are not safe. I am looking forward to meet other hackers out there. Currently, I only met one hacker from United State, and we are friends right now.

Do not tell me what is wrong and right, or do not suspect me in any cases related with hacking without any proof.

Hackers must stay united, this is only what I have in my mind.